Just got back from Orlando...staying in Vero for a week. What a great time, too, right when this tropicalcrapshit thing is coming through MY NEIGHBORHOOD.

AFO was fun. Even though I'm now sick from it. Ew.

I'm so surprised my power hasn't gone out, yet.

Gonna dye my hair something not black, for a while. Orange, maybe. Who knows. I'm too easily bored with myself. Hahaha.

Well, my dad's insurance is still off, so we have to wait for another month for my treatment. Hopefully the cancer doesn't progress and spread (I've already been cramping 10 times what I normally do, which is saying a lot, since I have cramps bad enough to make me pass out, all month). Keep your fingers crossed?

I feel like I really wanna make the best of my remaining time in Orlando fun (we're coming back down here for a bit to save up money, since we just...can't do it, right now). I wanna see all my friends up there a lot more before I leave, and just do what I can. As much as I say I hate that city, it's still part of me. Eh. Stupid...love/hate relationship...things...fuck.

So next time I go to orlando...I'm definitely going to a club. I'm so determined. lolz

I'll probably be up there, Thursday. Yeah.

Also. I really like having (some) blonde hair. I can't wait to bleach the rest. :3

Aaaaaaand someone needs to effing hire me. I'm tired of not having a steady job.

*crashes and burns*

fuck you all, go fucking die. i bitch too much. i lose friends because i'm overly dramatic. what the fuck ever. i don't want human contact anymore if everyone is just going to tear me apart for my "flaws". you ALL have fucking flaws. FUCK OFF.

i just cut like...half of my friend's list.

i am so tired of hearing about different people that i thought were my friends, talking shit about me. there are so many that do. so fucking many.

i really can't trust anyone at all, huh? kinda sad.

alright. so i've been considering the possibility of modeling for about...oh 6 years now. i have been told by 24832598735863578325321 people that i should be a model. so i have decided to maybe work towards it.

i'm looking for photographers who would be willing to photograph me in a few different sets (over a span of about 3 months maybe). i have good ideas every now and then, but i am also definitely up for the photographer throwing ideas out.

anyone up for it?